Friday, March 29, 2013

Rainbow Tails Rescue, Inc.

Who We Are

Rainbow Tails Rescue, Inc. is a charitable non profit organization that is based out of Maryland. Founded in November of 2005, we have saved the lives of over 400 animals and we continue to save as many as we can. We use a network of foster homes to help dogs and cats in need. We place them into generous foster homes until they receive the chance at a wonderful life with a forever family! We are always looking for foster homes for our dogs and cats! Donations are always welcome and are the spine of the organization. Without our generous supporters we wouldn't have the funds to care for the dogs and cats that we take in! If you are interested in helping please email us and we will get back to you shortly! Thank you for all of you out there that are animal lovers! Your generosity and help is always greatly appreciated, especially by the very animals that we save! 

Morgan Denny

". . . Saving just one pet won't change the world . . . but, surely, the world will change for that one pet . . . " 

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Geri needs a home, I rescued her from a life outside having litter after litter. She is shy but she is beautiful and deserves a life. Please if you know anyone message me.

Jae is a gorgeous girl she is Jacobs sister and about 2-3 years now she is still tiny and she loves to cuddle, she needs a home of her own. Please if you know anyone message me!

This is my friend Jacob I rescued him when he was only 6 weeks and he's been with me for two years. He deserves a home of his own, he is a shy guy but sweet if he likes to be pet and loved. Give him a chance at his own home!!!!!

Wednesday, March 27, 2013

My Opinion Equality Marriage

Equality Marriage
Societies Trouble For Today
My Opinion ~

In the Bible marriage was enacted for procreation. It literally says in the Bible if you are going to have sex then enter into marriage with that person. If not, then it is better to stay single. It does say in the Bible that it is a sin for man to lay with man. Yet, Jesus died so that we are forgiven of our sins. God knows our plight with sin and living in our flesh, it is why he sent his only begotten son to save us. I do support gay marriage because God says that above all else LOVE. 
Love should not be discriminatory and there are different kinds of love. I think the fight is for the gay community to be able to legally reap the benefits of marriage. LEGALLY means nothing to God - He is the creator, that would be like telling the President that he has to go clean the gutters or something trivial. Law is a fly that God swats at. The Bible does tell us to obey the law, because God wants us to be honorable, yet humble. However, ultimately - this is not for any of us to dictate what the true meaning of marriage is. 
I support gay rights because I love people who live that lifestyle - I don't agree with it - but, I love them. I am not gay, so I can't understand it. I am not going to be prejudice because of differences. The arguments are a testament to the character of humanity. God doesn't make mistakes, so if someone is born and they love the same sex, then did God make a mistake in creating them? Or is he putting an obstacle in the path of society? There has always been confrontation in one way or another. The mistake is in attempting to control every aspect of our lives; including other's lives. The Bible says that Jesus died so that we can LIVE. So, live and let live, I say. When love is in your heart, that is God's touch.
Until next time or the next... dream

Tuesday, March 19, 2013

Adventures In Life

March 20, 2013

Early Monday morning I went back to the E.R. for severe pain in my right side (back). I knew it was a kidney stone. Last time (a month ago) my stone was right on the edge, it was big enough that it may require other ways of breaking up the stone for easier passing - or, I could pass it on my own. I didn't know if that stone had passed. This time the CT scan said that the stone was smaller though. It is still causing me a great deal of pain.  The last CT scan also reminded me that I have a cyst on my right ovary. The technician called today to inform me that the CT scan also showed that my spleen is enlarged. I have to take it easy, try not to get into a car accident (God forbid) or strenuous activities. It is really dangerous if my spleen gets any bigger and could cause internal bleeding. Tomorrow I have to get my butt in gear and find a primary care doctor and then all the other specialists that I will have to see.
Right now, as I am writing this, the pain is probably at a 6 (on a scale from 1 to 10, 10 being the worst pain). This is a scale that I don't like using. Because when judging my pain, and they want me to reference a 10 as the worst pain I have ever experienced. I have really been through too much pain - so, I scale it down in my head and I think 10 being the worst pain that an average person would experience. I really hate going to the hospital! So, if I say I have to go - you know I am in pain.
Experiencing pain for the past 10 years, daily chronic pain, is really taking it's toll on me. I feel like I use to be so strong, I could lock the pain away in my head and go about my day. Now, the pain is just too much. I'm so tired of having pain. What am I to do? I can't have a corrective surgery of my scar site. Hopkins doctor's have told me that I am a high risk, that any corrective surgery could actually cause more nerve damage and more scar tissue. I have faith in God's plans - I know he saved me for a reason.
I hope that you are healthy and happy!
Until next time or the next... dream

Friday, March 15, 2013

Meditation Contemplation

March 15, 2013
While it is easier said then done. It's not healthy to hold anger in. My only problem is that I have a daily reminder of pain... a massive scar, from a hideous scar in my abdomen area. What I like to do when I am studying or doing a devotional, I like to break down the written question. This helps me to sort things out.
"You will begin to heal when you let go of past hurts." I totally agree. Doesn't mean that it's easy to do. When my husband left me, It was the darkest time in my life. I literally spent entire nights crying in my bed.  It took me a while to actually let go. The only reason that I could let go, is because I sought God. Have you heard of the saying "Let go and let God."  I can only speak for myself, but I feel that if someone is hurt deeply enough that it can stay a long time bottled up.
"Forgive those that have wronged you" I use to have a hard time with forgiving people. I would often say, "I'll forgive you but I won't forget." I learned though, that if God can forgive us of our sins, then I can definitely forgive other's of their sins.
"Learn to forgive yourself for your mistakes" this is the one that I really need to meditate on. Just recently, through cognitive behavioral therapy, I learned about the inner child. I had to work on loving myself. It was harder then I thought. I still struggle with this.
What are you battling with today?

Until next time or the next... dream

Readers Live

March 15, 2013
When reading this I think of all the stories that have taken me on adventures and helped me to see the world in different hues. I can't remember the name of the book, but there was one that I read that followed a Native American women, part of my heritage is Cherokee. Her name started with a K, so naturally I liked her even more. I like the stories where there are some aspects that you can relate to. It helps me to invest myself within the story.
The smart ass in me says "If a cat has nine lives, does that mean they can read books?
This cat looks like it just read how Bill crossed Sookie in the Sookie Stackhouse Series by Charlaine Harris (True Blood).
My mom use to tell me how when she was growing up that she was always reading. She has always been a reader. I think that she has probably read most, if not all, of the romance novels. This is something that she's always just like to do. I can only read if a story is really good. If not, I just fall asleep.
I have used this in the past too, to escape. When I need to escape it is because I am unable to process what is going on. When I put myself in time-out, it gives me that space to cool down and think tings through without the emotions that can distort my thought process.
That's all for today folks - short and sweet.
Until next time or the next... dream

Thursday, March 7, 2013

Early Interventions

March 7th, 2013

Early intervention is crucially important when your child has special needs. Working with challenged children for over 20 years, I can first-hand testify that the difference can provide a better quality of life for you and your child (children).  Many parent's really do a disservice to their families when they do not seek help within that time period when they are still questioning their child's development (meanwhile also questioning themselves at the same time). As aggravating as it may be for a parent to feel the pressures from the politics of school systems and specialists; it is equally as aggravating working with children that could have had better odds if they were given the chance for early intervention without prejudices from any party involved. Think of your child's care, education, and anything else - everyone is a member on your child/student's team, and everyone needs to work together to benefit the child.  The student/child should always be the priority. If you have questions, ask. If you disagree, find the facts and have documentation.

This also applies to sensory integration. Introducing sensory at an early age can be beneficial especially if your child is tactile defensive. There are great ways to incorporate sensory into any child's early development.
Here are just a few:
3.) Make shaking bottles. Take a used (see through) plastic bottle. Kids seem to like any size from 2 litter to a smaller bottle to do this with. Then have them fill the bottle. Popular items include beans, bells, and small decorative erasers. This will also help hand and eye coordination as well as occupational therapy. Another great spin on this concept is water bottles. Use water and oil (food coloring to add color) and it creates that contrast that can be therapeutic for both child and parent. Make sure the tops on the bottles are securely closed.  If you have a child that is able to open the top, then you may want to clue the top on to avoid choking hazards or possible poisoning.
2.) If you do have a child that is very sensitive to touch (which is associated to many different disorders, syndromes, or other classifications). A way to help your child work toward increasing tolerance is to create a feel box. Decorate the box so that it is appealing for the child to explore and play with. Add different sensory items such as sand paper, bubble wrap, scents, and lotions (just to name a few). Once they are more comfortable discovering and using the items in the box, you can also cut a hole in the box and let them discover what is inside without actually looking (it's fun when they have to guess what they are feeling). This is not going to work for every child. It is really important not to beat yourself up (or your child) when something doesn't work out how it should. You can always give it a break and then try to reincorporate it again. I have to do this with my own son - sometimes he doesn't like something the first time, then the more I present it to him, he's like "yeah, whatever."
1.) This is a great sensory activity, just be warned that it can be very messy. Make sure you have a sheet ready to lay down on the floor before. Have a couple different larger Tupperware containers. Fill each one with a different sensory (beans, noodles, sand, water). You can add their favorite toys in the containers to promote the child to play within the ingredients (however, this could highly upset some children - never do something if it is going to be traumatizing. Start small and work up toward a goal - baby steps). This is why I said to put the sheet down to cut down on the clean-up time (don't freak out - there will be spills!) To add consistency to your child's daily routines you can have a set time to do these activities or a certain day.  This will also cut-down on any behavioral issues that could arise.

Speaking of behavior, early intervention is crucial with behavioral management as well. It is one thing for it to be age appropriate, it is another thing when the child is a repeated offender (especially if they are physically hurting others). Seek counseling and help right away if your child is hurting their self or others. It might be time to seek professional help and create a behavioral plan.  These are put in the place for the benefit of everyone in the child's life, including the child.  Consistency is another very crucial aspect, if you do not have consistency then the child will understand that the rules can be broken and could take advantage of this (to their benefit, no one else's). Make sure you follow-through with what you are telling your child. If you do not follow-through, it is sending mixed messages, it can be confusing and only agitate an already delicate behavioral scenario.
Remember that every single child is different, what could work with one child and one situation, could not work with any other. Don't give up on your child or yourself. If you feel like it is too much, seek help for yourself as well. A couple key factors hat I have learnt through my 10 years within my own son's life, it isn't easy. I have cried, screamed, and have even been hospitalized. Make sure to take care of yourself, you can't take care of other's if you yourself are not taken care of.  Go to therapy for yourself, if you can't go to a counselor then try to join an on-line community (there are a lot of them) and they are wonderful. It is a great resource as well, you can read what other's have experienced and gone through. You also can ask questions if you have them and want an opinion of another parent. Make sure to participate and share, someone could learn something from you as well.
Feel free to ask me questions by posting below.

Until next time or the next... dream


March7th, 2013
By definition faith means to have complete confidence in someone or trusting something.  Faith also is defined as a "strong belief in God or in the doctrines of a religion, based on spiritual apprehension rather than proof" (Google search, 2013). You can read the words, but I think faith could also mean something different for everyone.

I had always believed in God growing up. When I was 25 I went through a really tough time trying to come to terms with what had happened to me in the hospital and having my son (who is severely handicapped). To me, faith is something that you feel in your soul. If I am having a difficult time, I may be upset that it is happening, but I have faith that He will also see me through it.  It goes with that saying "God doesn't bring you to something without bringing you through it" (I think that's the saying). This was a difficult concept to swallow after the birth of my son and my ordeal in the hospital.  I had felt like I was being punished and I kept asking God what I had done to deserve this. What I had learnt since then is, who am I to question God? It is His plan not mine. An epiphany about a year later was that God had actually given me the training that I would need for my son.

Before my son Kaleb was born in 2002, I worked with special needs students.  I started working in this field first when I volunteered at the age of 14. So, you can imagine, I had a great deal of knowledge and resources already after the birth of my child - much more than most parent's have. The anger I had inside toward God was immediately replaced with understanding. You see He understands our agony and He does not think any less of anyone who is angered by what this earth presses on us. He only wants us to have faith in His timing and for us to come to Him. God has given us the ability to choose, in His own way.  Think this way, if we were to go to a foreign country (the foreign country being the Lord) if we went without any knowledge of the dialect, we couldn't understand what was going on.  In this case we're not suppose to understand or have the 'knowledge'. We aren't suppose to constantly seek the fruit of knowledge. We're suppose to have faith in Him, period. We can read the Bible and understand all the different stories of how time and time again God must have been disappointed in His creation of man. This is why God knows our suffrage, He knows the challenges of the flesh and of this earth. Our mortal minds cannot begin to imagine the immensity of it all. Not needing to understand everything, to know He is in control and finding the peace within this; that is the definition of faith to me. What is it to you?

Until next time or the next... dream

Wednesday, March 6, 2013


February 21, 2013

Many people ask me about being a survivor of Necrotizing Fasciitis (otherwise known as ‘the flesh eating bacteria’).  Ten years ago, when I was pregnant with my son, my water broke two month early.  It was never explained to me, other than “These things happen” why my water broke so early.  
After a week of grueling bed rest, the doctors said that we would have to induce labor, because I had started to run a low grade temperature.  Meanwhile, I had all sort of different tubes and such (where it wasn’t very comfortable!).  I was administered, unsuccessfully – two epidurals.  The emergency cesarean was traumatizing, leaving me with busted eye vessels from screaming.

While my son was air lifted to another hospital that could care for his conditions (there was no evidence that anything was wrong with my pregnancy, until my water broke).  He was born with a TEF (tracheal-esophageal fistula).  I had to remain in the hospital to recover; I was still running a low grade temperature.
The hospital was never able to locate the cause of the temperature.  I was eager and very anxious; I wanted to be with my son.  I was discharged about two days later and would have to be readmitted shortly after for an infection of the C-section site (original diagnosis). 

Immense, traumatizing, unimaginable pain ensued.  Finally a doctor recognized what I had as Necrotizing Fasciitis; and before we knew it I was being prepped for surgery.  I’ll never forget being wheeled away toward the operating room.  I watched my mother as she started crying, not knowing if this was the last time she would see her youngest.  I remember being worried about her finding her way back to the family waiting area, and was comforted by the image of a nurse coming to her aide.
When I woke up from the drug-induced coma, I had no clue what had happened, or what was going on.  I saw my mother sitting by my side and felt instant relief.  I could feel soreness, burning sensation resonating from my stomach and nether region.  It wouldn’t be until later; when my family had gone that a nurse brought me the information on what I had just survived.  A heat bubbled from my chest toward my head as I began to cry.

The disease would claim some of my abdominal muscles.  The doctor’s actually said that I was lucky to have had some meat on my bones, otherwise the disease would have reached my organs and I would not have survived.  I was in the hospital for over a month, and endured numerous debridement’s (where they cut out the dead/black/infected skin) and a wound vac (a vacuum that is connected to the wound to suck out moisture to promote healing).
Needless to say I am left with severe scar tissue and damage.  Along with massive nerve damage and I was also diagnosed with PTSD (Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder).  I try not to complain, understanding that there are those that have to deal with worse than me.  My son for example is quadropolegic (cerebral palsy) he has epilepsy, CHARGE syndrome, a trach, and j-tube.  His strength when he smiles lightens my heart and I can feel not only his love, but God’s as well.

I think that is it for today.  Please feel free to share or submit your questions, comments or concerns.  I look forward to hearing from you.

Until next time or the next… dream!


**Warning** The following pictures are very graphic.  Only proceed if you would like to see pictures that were taken of me while I was in the hospital.

Adventures In Life

February 22, 2013

As the shortest month in the calendar year, it has been the fullest for me.  Working hard in the beginning of the month going through “Going off Dreams,” originally I had written the parallel realm that was reflective of my own life and experiences.  However, I chose to take out my life and create a new story line.  I can always save my testimonies and experiences for another book.

I have been working really hard trying to ‘put my book out there’.  I monitor and post a variety of different networking sites.  Constantly posting about my book; the other day I posted in reference to such, and commented that ‘I hope that my excessive posting is not annoying anyone’.  To my surprise, the comments advised me to continue posting and self-promoting.

The capper for this month was last night.  I have battled with kidney stones before (my father and sister both have had them in the past too), this week I had been in pain (more than usual) and finally last night I knew exactly what the pain was from.  Dealing with kidney stones in the past, I knew the symptoms, and the kind of pain I was experiencing.  I might have mentioned in a previous posting how I have PTSD – well, hospitals sort of freak me out!  So, I do not go unless absolutely necessary.  When I could no longer endure the pain, my boyfriend drove me to the hospital.

Six hours, I sat in excruciating pain.  Honestly, I can say that this visit was the worst.  I am no stranger to hospitals, processing, and procedures.  It was upsetting to have to sit in an uncomfortable seat (while in pain) for over three hours.  Even when we did get called back to a patient room, we did not see the nurse for another hour.  The doctor came in before the nurse did.  They confirmed it was a kidney stone from the scan that they did. 

After the nurse administered various medications, I felt much better.  My mom met up with us at the hospital so that my boyfriend could go home to rest (he had to work in the morning).  We were in the room for approximately two more hours before being discharged… which, after the nurse was finished with my discharge paperwork and as they were leaving the room I reminded them about the strainers I have to urinate in, trying to catch the stone.

Having to be up all night is very wearing on your body.  There are plenty of nights where I have to stay up with my son because the night nurse had called out that night, or for whatever reasoning.  However, pain will exhaust you as well.  I was beyond tired, as soon as I got into bed I was out!  I even slept for more than four hours in a row! That’s great for me!

So, this has been a short example of the adventures in life.  What did you think?

Until next time, or the next… dream!


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