Adventures In Life

March 20, 2013

Early Monday morning I went back to the E.R. for severe pain in my right side (back). I knew it was a kidney stone. Last time (a month ago) my stone was right on the edge, it was big enough that it may require other ways of breaking up the stone for easier passing - or, I could pass it on my own. I didn't know if that stone had passed. This time the CT scan said that the stone was smaller though. It is still causing me a great deal of pain.  The last CT scan also reminded me that I have a cyst on my right ovary. The technician called today to inform me that the CT scan also showed that my spleen is enlarged. I have to take it easy, try not to get into a car accident (God forbid) or strenuous activities. It is really dangerous if my spleen gets any bigger and could cause internal bleeding. Tomorrow I have to get my butt in gear and find a primary care doctor and then all the other specialists that I will have to see.
Right now, as I am writing this, the pain is probably at a 6 (on a scale from 1 to 10, 10 being the worst pain). This is a scale that I don't like using. Because when judging my pain, and they want me to reference a 10 as the worst pain I have ever experienced. I have really been through too much pain - so, I scale it down in my head and I think 10 being the worst pain that an average person would experience. I really hate going to the hospital! So, if I say I have to go - you know I am in pain.
Experiencing pain for the past 10 years, daily chronic pain, is really taking it's toll on me. I feel like I use to be so strong, I could lock the pain away in my head and go about my day. Now, the pain is just too much. I'm so tired of having pain. What am I to do? I can't have a corrective surgery of my scar site. Hopkins doctor's have told me that I am a high risk, that any corrective surgery could actually cause more nerve damage and more scar tissue. I have faith in God's plans - I know he saved me for a reason.
I hope that you are healthy and happy!
Until next time or the next... dream
K.E.Nowinsky